MISS n LET GO~~~

i really dunno y i miss him so much recently although we r not fren anymore but the memories bwt me n him still in my brain. Besides that he always comes out in my dream when i sleep but after wake up i'll cry n emo.In my dream we still r good fren n talk to each other.I always hope tat it not js happen in my dream but in my real life. I know tat dreams r dreams n i need to wake up..... haiz.... wat to do ler we even didnt say HI to each other when we meet now alr !!!!
Especially on last fri, only both of us in the lift. At tat moment i really wan talk to him but i cant step out coz i get hurt b4 and tat time make me scare to talk to him anymore. Everytime i saw him i also scare to look to his face hiaz........However, i cant lie to myself and honestly to say that he still in my heart n i cant let him go at this moment although i try my best b4. maybe as i say b4 we really dun have the fated together even as a fren....
30 April 2008 is the day tat i ever forget in my life----the last day he close n talk to me. i still remember tat day we stay at college till 6pm++ he fetch me go take my car at tat time he keep say BYE BYE to me but i didnt say any words to him.. Maybe the god alr give me the signal to tell me tat day is our last day to be fren.....
i really sad tat i lose a fren like him. Although i force myself wan forget him but when i force myself to do tat i'll feel i miss him more. Thus, i dunwan force myself to forget him anymore. This is becasue i read s book b4 "dun force urself to forget anyone, but js put them in ur heart n 10s to him because he is part of ur life b4. Let time to let go everything" i really agree to it n it so meaningful to me at tis moment.
Now i js need sum TIME..............