属于

我坚持的 都值得坚持吗

我所相信的 就是真的吗

如果我赶追求 我就敢拥有吗

而如果都算了 不要呢

或许吧 或许我永远都不要遇见他

或许吧 或许我太天真了吧

属于风的 那就去飞翔吧

属于海洋的 那就汹涌的

属于我们的爱 该来的就来吧

为什麽不敢呢 不要呢

是他吧 命中早就注定了的那个他

是他吧 他原来就在这里啊

属于我的昨天之前的结局 我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬 我迷信我的迷信

属于我们点点滴滴的伤心 我们要各自忘记

属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情 我们再一起努力

Final Result

Today after bak kut teh with ken n other college mate i straight away go home n sleep coz i really tired since i wake up 5am. However when i'm in my sweet dream PV call me n say "siewling faster wakeup coz final result come out jor" haiz i though wan wait till nite only check n continue "mahjong with caogong" WAKAKA but i really cant tahan n cant sleep back so js wake up n check my result....

OMG tat time really scare but after c my result i damn shock....half shock for happiness half shock of angry. The happy thing is i get 1d 2c 1p in tis final semester. Especially when i c the result for MPS i really cant believe tat i can get C (hardest sub for me) keke....watever when i move down my eyes i saw my amr only hav P (the result tat i never expected) n tis make me cant get average C in overall (EMO EMO the stupid M.G really blind) luckly this is my final semester n i never ever c the M.G again if not sure i kill myself....

Haiz ............... i know i emo also no use coz over is over. However i still nid to wave coz i'm graduated n wan look for my good future.......

FINAL~~final

wow i really cant believe tat this year is my final year and final semester to study. Today is my final exam paper also (although got a bit EMO after come out from exam hall coz dunno how to do)wakaak..... time pass so fast i'm alr study in college for 4 years alr lor. Besides that, need work to earn money jor but till now i dun have the direction wat job tat i wan looking for keke (tat's y always scolded by my brother) but dun care lar let me rest for a while 1st maybe after CNY only i think bout it lor.

Erm when i recall back the memories in the 4 yr college life, i really realise that i become more independent and mature jor keke. There are happiness and even sadness happen between this 4 yrs study life tat make me become mature. However i really need to thanks to my college mate tat always give me support when i face any problem especially in this final yrs. I really cant expected tat so many thing happen in the same time and make me always on the worst and down situation (especially the relationship with HIM and family). HAIZ..... wat can i do is learn form the mistake and always remind myself dun repeat it again. Now i really hope tat i can always keep i touch with my college mate after graduated and wish them all the best in the future..........

生命中的每一个人

一路上，我遇到很多人 他们曾带给我欢乐，哀愁和痛苦 让我喜欢他们，讨厌他们,甚至怨恨他们 走了一段路后，当我回头看看他们时 却发现他们不知何时，早已失去踪影...这时，心里很想对他们说: 谢谢你们曾陪我走过一段路，因为你们才有现在的我.....


有人说爱情就像在捡石头， 总想捡到一个适合自己的， 但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？ *她适合你，那你又适合她吗? 其实，爱情就像磨石子一样， 或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意， 但是记住人是有弹性的， 很多事情是可以改变的， 只要你有心、有勇气， 与其到处去捡未知的石头， 还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？


其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间！
爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时， 很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了！ 当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。 那并不代表你会选择他。 *我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。 但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候， 你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。

*没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。 可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。 假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？ 其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。 或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣， 但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发觉而已呢？ 所以，仔细看看身边的人吧！

I SWEAR

I Swear to myself i wont forgive u again coz u really make me sad and dissappointed many many time. Everytime when i forgive u, u also promise me u wont do it again. However after u meet the stupid "big Mouth" frens u totally change back the attituded again and dun ever think bout me....I say many many times alr y u muz care wat other ppl say ??? We r fren so u shud have trust in each other but u dun ever use ur brain to think and not mature at all...Sumtimes when i think back i really hope tat we never be fren b4 so tat maybe my life will much more easier. I SWear to myself both of us wont have any relationship in the future coz i dunwan get any TROUBLE make myself SAD, EMO ,CRY. I SWEAR to myself without u i still can have my new and happy life..........

What Can I Do To CHANGE My Life

i really really dunno wat can i do to change for my life i hate my life now. Everyday bz with many many thing. Other ppl js work their own thing,but my life need separate to 3 part. 1 Is for my own study and work, 1 for my dad business and another 1 is for my mum housework. Actually i really dun mind to help them as long as i can get wat i wan (happiness in the home) but i cant even get it . On the other hand i always feel upsad and moody. i always ask myself whether i got do my best to satisfied my parents????but i cant get the answer haiz....... My Life is not as easy as ppl think and i dun think other ppl can have the same life like me. for example, my fren can go anyway anytime they want. HAHA for me i need to think izzit i finish my housework???izzit i need help my dad business??? Actually i only have 1/3 life for myself others is for them but how come they still cant satisfied and keep saying tat i'm lazy n tis n tat especially my mum always complaint to my dad to scold me SWT........NOW I REALLY DUNNO WAT CAN I DO!!!!!!

说好的幸福呢

你的回话凌乱着 在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌 假装没事了
时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始的不快乐 你用卡片试写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
怎么了 你累了 说好的幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦淹了
开心于不开心一一叙旧着 你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢.........

执着

有时候人真的不能太过执着
因为很多东西上天都明明已安排好的
你不能反抗 而只能接受
我永远都很相信一句话
是你的永远都是你的

但如果不是你的 无论你如何强求都没有用
哈哈套一句老土的话……勉强是没有幸福的
如果早一点决定可以让彼此都好过
哪为何要挣扎呢????
因为我很相信长痛不如短痛
或许你做这个决定时会伤心痛苦一段时间
但当你走过这一段时间痛苦回忆之后
你会很庆幸当初狠心的自己

才能换得今天开心的自己

EMO season!!!

haiz really dunno y almost all my fren around me also have the emo situation recently....haha even me also have. MAybe people getting elder the problem and presure that need face by us getting more. THus we emo coz dunno wat decision make is correct.

I tHInk all my frens also know tat i like baby very much wakaka. Even we js walking or having meal when i saw baby around me sure i shout that the baby is SO cute. BUt do u know y i like baby so much??? This is because for me i think tat become a baby is the most hapi time. BAby no nid to care bout study result no nid to scare tat they will hurt by other frens and etc... because Baby have the "simplest world". WHen u treay them good they js give u a smile while u scold baby when they done sumting wrong. MAybe they will cry but the next day they will still play with u...

however, this may not happen in the real adult world. This is a comperative world u wan get high marks,others ppl wan higher than u. U wan get high post for work, other ppl may jealous bout u and make u trouble.I remember i got 1 fren told me b4 he wont ever trust his fren around him. Although he can very very close with sumone but in his heart he js wan to take advantages from the person.When i heard wat he say i feel so shock because i never expect tat he will tell me the truth. Wat he advice me is dun over trust my fren around me because i will get hurt if my fren really done sumting bad for me.

HAhaha when he finish saying i js smile to him n told him i alr hurt by my fren for so many times b4 alr. Everytime i get hurt i really sad n down but wat can i do?? i still be fren with the ppl tat hurt me b4 because i think tis is part of our life that we cannot avoid.Besides that, not all the fren also like tat de....Therefore,In my mind, if u really treat me as a fren i will treat u as my GOOD fren because frens is very important in my life....................

还是好朋友

没有人要内疚 没需要原宥 在十字街头 就相互保佑

那些体贴问候 那美丽镜头 没必要一分开 就变成了诅咒

相爱这一场 可能是为了 能拥有一个好朋友

还是好朋友 比爱人长久

不能牵的手按在心头 在最寂寞的关头 永远在左右

事过情迁后（升华以后）升华眼泪后

思念是最漫长的享受（漫长的享受）

那无痛的伤口 还带着温柔到白头 .......

亲吻失去感受 火花烧到尽头

没激情没有感情 有另一种邂逅

相爱这一场 可能是为了能拥有一个好朋友

还是好朋友 比爱人长久 不能牵的手按在心头

在最寂寞的关头 永远在左右

事过情迁后（升华以后）升华眼泪后

思念是最漫长的享受（漫长的享受）

那无痛的伤口 还带着温柔到白头

是什么叫你我 只配做一对好朋友

MISS n LET GO~~~

i really dunno y i miss him so much recently although we r not fren anymore but the memories bwt me n him still in my brain. Besides that he always comes out in my dream when i sleep but after wake up i'll cry n emo.In my dream we still r good fren n talk to each other.I always hope tat it not js happen in my dream but in my real life. I know tat dreams r dreams n i need to wake up..... haiz.... wat to do ler we even didnt say HI to each other when we meet now alr !!!!
Especially on last fri, only both of us in the lift. At tat moment i really wan talk to him but i cant step out coz i get hurt b4 and tat time make me scare to talk to him anymore. Everytime i saw him i also scare to look to his face hiaz........However, i cant lie to myself and honestly to say that he still in my heart n i cant let him go at this moment although i try my best b4. maybe as i say b4 we really dun have the fated together even as a fren....
30 April 2008 is the day tat i ever forget in my life----the last day he close n talk to me. i still remember tat day we stay at college till 6pm++ he fetch me go take my car at tat time he keep say BYE BYE to me but i didnt say any words to him.. Maybe the god alr give me the signal to tell me tat day is our last day to be fren.....
i really sad tat i lose a fren like him. Although i force myself wan forget him but when i force myself to do tat i'll feel i miss him more. Thus, i dunwan force myself to forget him anymore. This is becasue i read s book b4 "dun force urself to forget anyone, but js put them in ur heart n 10s to him because he is part of ur life b4. Let time to let go everything" i really agree to it n it so meaningful to me at tis moment.
Now i js need sum TIME..............

WILL

Haha tis is my second post alr lor today i wan intro a new fren here. His name is William. we meet each other since on Nov last yr in tuition centrel. but can u imagine tat wat the 1st sentences tat we talk to each other???? wakakaka sure u think is "HI,my name is wat...." if u really think like tis i cant tel u TOTALYY WRONG....the 1st sentences i say is "Oh.......u r the william!!!" then he reply me as"OH....u r the siewling !!!" swt.....

after tat we started our frenship alr.Everyday "bergaduh"in the tuition centrel,gossip tis and tat HAiz...really miss tat season lor coz everyday also life in happy day.HE is my Will teacher keke if got any problem when teaching js find HIm and throw everyting to HIm sure he can solve for u de. however, So sad to say tat he need go back study in Sarawak lor.

haiz...Make me feel very bored coz nobody fight with me anymore wakaka. although now he is studying in Sarawak but we still keep in touch very often kaka always "bergaduh" in the sms.Even my tuition student also know who r HIm coz i always call HIm n ask question during tuition time(pai seh to do tat coz i didnt pay Him consultation fees) kkekekeek...

WILL honest to say tat i'm proud and happy to have a fren like u.THanks for always cheer me up when i sad n solve problem with me when i need ur help. I know u have ur own problem recently but dun worry coz i promise i'll listen to u when u back to kL on sep 23 kaka (as u say really hope tml is sep 23)i remember u say b4 tat ur hp is on for 24 hours and i can call anytime when i wan share my sadness and happyness with u. NOw let me say it back to u CALL me anytime when u need ppl listen to u.

lastly,hope tat our frenship is js like the cow and lamb wakakakaka WAIting for SEp 23 to see u appear in front of me kekekekek take care my fren........

缘起缘落

我一直以为每个人的相遇都是因为缘份无论是亲情，友情还是爱情
都是一样的。但缘份这种东西真的很难让人理解因为它让你相知，
相遇却不一定有好的结果。认识的第一年，曾经我很讨厌和他的相
遇因为他做的每一样东西我都看不顺眼。总觉得他自私，自大，爱面
子，不能输等等。我想一开始他对我的印象也不好吧因为他竟然在
不了解我的情况下误解我，然后对我生气，还好最后他知道错怪我
了。
但当到了第二和第三年我们都同班也开始渐渐从一般朋友的交
谈到私地下也爱逗来逗去的好朋友。今年我们还是一样爱打打闹闹
但却让我对他有不一样的感觉----------我觉得他变了。变得不再自
私也比较友好了。而且还在学业上给我很大的帮助和鼓励让我真的
真的很感谢他。
但这时上天却给了我一个很大的考验让我们之间在
学业上发生了误会让他对我很生气也很不谅解。我尝试各种方法去
解决但还是徒劳无功。还让我们之间陷入冰点的僵局。夜深人静时，
我哭了很多次问自己为什么会有今天的局面，但却找不到答案。身
边的朋友也一直劝我放弃这段友谊才能让自己好过一点。
我一个人在家想了很多遍要自己放手去开始新的生活。所以我
联络他还说了一些自己的想法但他没有回音。最后的结局对我而言
已经不重要了。因为我尽最大的勇气和力量去挽回这段友谊，所以
没有任何遗憾。
现在的我开始有一种笑的感觉因为兜兜转转我们的关系还是
回到了原点。或许以后的我们连朋友也不能当了，但我还是感谢命
运和缘份安排让我认识你。我充心的感谢你曾经在学业上给我的帮
助也再一次对你说声对不起………真的对不起