我爱他

他的镜框留在 某一节车厢 地下铁里的风 比回忆还重

整座城市一直等着我 有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一(如果还有)遗憾 是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来

若那一刻重来 我不哭 让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂 我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘

曾为他 相信明天就是未来 情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望 我的心 深深伤过却不会忘

我和他 不再属于这个地方 最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

我的爸爸

我在我爸爸的心目中是个小公主。从小到大他都非常疼爱我，只因为我也时常向他撒娇。还记得小时候当我爸爸骂我时我不会认错反而会发脾气然后躲在房间里。而每次都是爸爸先来哄我开心。我虽然从小到大在别人眼里都是好孩子但我还是有调皮的时候。

在小学4-5年级的时候，我因为不想补习而说各种谎言来骗我爸爸。
但是有一天老师打电话来家里问为什么我没有去补习时，我爸爸终于知道我在说谎。但他并没有打骂我反而让我非常内疚因为我看见爸爸眼中的失望。

我爸爸只是个很平凡的小贩但他却让我有完成大学的本事。我知道他真的很辛苦所以我努力让自己成为不让他担心的孩子。今年我已经22岁了，我爸爸对我宠爱依然没有变。当我有事时，他比我还紧张只因为要保护我。

虽然我在爱情路上失败过跌到过但我却不担心，因为从我出生那刻起就有一个很爱很爱我的人在我身边------那就是我爸爸。虽然我从没在你面前对你我爱你但我会用我的行动证明我对你的爱。爸爸-----我爱你

愛情迷宮

我好累。我真的累了.................................
一個月短暫的甜蜜，換來的是心碎，值得嗎？
愛情不是數學，不能以邏輯來思考，所以每每我問自己這個問題時，換來的答案總是不曾後悔。我可以對他每天思念,昏昏沉沉地過日子。為了他，我早已放棄正規的自己，每一個寂寞的夜晚只能把自己困在只有他的回憶裡。而他呢?這樣的愛情，公平嗎？

可笑的是，愛情啊，它從來就不理會別人的感受、也不會在乎公平與否的問題、更不理一切的上訴。它就是法律，它裁定了一切，沒有規則、沒有裁判、沒有所謂的贏家或輸家，只是在愛情世界裡，心痛總會比甜蜜來的更快而已。愛情不會乞求你來擁有它，它是多麼地期盼把你三振出局啊！它根本就不在乎你一個無名小卒的放棄，因為到後來，總是卑微的人們強忍委屈地爬回它的身旁，哀求著它重回自己的身旁！

而我，就是那個卑微的人，不停地盼望這一點的愛情，卻得不到任何的回應。人生如此地美妙，我卻為了“愛”這個字，放棄體會身邊的幸福。沒有甚麼值不值得，因為不管它的價值是如何，我早已無法從這段苦澀的感情里脫身。世界的美好，卻彌補不了被愛情拋棄的痛楚。而我，也就走不出來他的愛情迷宮了。

Updates

I alr work for almost 2 mths alr kakaka time pass very fast I even had my graduation ceremony. Haiz now everyday I also bz for my work n tuition. Sumtimes really tired like hell but wat to do ler I nid money mar wakakaka. I know a lot of my fren complaint me tat I alr long time didn’t meet or go out with them jor. I really nid to say soli here to all my fren coz I also hope tat I have extra time everyday so tat can go out and relax.

However, I’m still enjoy on my work (if no nid hit target I think is better wakaka) but I think every job have their own responsibilities to do so since I alr choose tis job then I muz enjoy and do my best. Honestly to say tat I really a lot of thing in tis banking industries and I feel it is very challenging. Besides that, I know a lot of fren from different level and status as well. HOPE to find my Mr. Right here as well wakakaka

Working Life~~

Time pass so fast. Tis is my 3rd week working days alr. So far i'm enjoy my working life and really learn a lot of thing tat i dun ever know b4. 1st week i had my "selamat datang" program for 3 days. I damn miss the program lor coz i meet a lot of fren there.Everyday js have fun and chatting there wakaka js like my college life. ERM i shud say better than my college life coz there r no stress js enjoy urself.

2nd week ler .....haiz everyday seat in the office read the file and document quite boring ler but i can get closer with my collegues. WAKAKA especially when i dunno how to use the scanner and fotocopy mechine but now i'm "pro" on it jor.

then tis is my 3rd week and i hav attachment in medan pasar branch. I LOVE tis branch till dunwan go back to KL Main office jor. ALL the HEAD of the team are very very frenly. THEY wont act like ur boss but js like ur fren. When u hav any problem sure they can help u. Summore in tis branch u will see the very very nice working environment. Tis is becoz all the ppl here are frenly and easy-going. i think the most noisy department was from tis department lor. COZ everyone there also the lame ppl. HAIZ...... so pity i nid go back to KL Main on next tue alr but i alr told the Boss and ask him wait me 3 mths and i wan transfer here wakakaka

However i'm enjoy my working life now and i feel very challenging on my job. Summore tis weekend i will go 2 days 1 nite trip. WAKAKA

因為愛.....你

因為愛 你. 所以放手還你自由
因為愛 你. 所以不再讓你困擾
因為愛 你. 所以寧願自己難過

因為愛 你. 所以我逼自己離開

如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?
是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

愛上一个人..........如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害
放棄一个人..........如此的難過卻又讓人心碎

珍惜身旁的每一个人,不要等到失去了
才瞭解到遺憾.和後悔是如此的痛苦....

我没有想象中坚强

严格来说我已经一个月多没有写部落格。在这一段时间里我象和世界隔绝一样因为实在有太多不开心的事发生在我的身上，让我有很大的压力甚至每晚都有失眠情况然后都在哭泣的夜晚中度过。我只能用辛苦来形容那段时间因为在个方面的我都很不顺利象找不到自己喜欢的工作，和家人有很大的摩擦。

这里每一天发生的事都快让我崩溃，每一天都象行尸走肉般的过生活。或许很多人会认为我是很坚强的人就象什么事情都难不倒我。但我真的很想说我没有你们想象中坚强甚至有时候我会有轻生的念头。只因为我觉得没有人可以真正了解我和帮助我所以我只能活在自己的世界里。

虽然我还是会在外人面前强颜欢笑但是还是有人会看穿我。而那个只是个---陌生人。当他问我为什么看起来怎么伤感的时候我真的有一股想要在人前哭出来的感觉。因为我以为我掩饰的很好甚至我的朋友都看不出来但却让一个陌生人看穿我那时候的我真的不知道要怎样形容我那时的心情。

所以当天晚上我打电话给我在远方念书的朋友。因为他就象我的军士每当有开心或不开心的事我第一个都会和他分享。他总是可以很清楚的帮我分析事情让我有明确的决定。当他问我发生什么时我的泪水就情不止禁的狂流我想他当时也给我的哭声吓一跳吧那时我根本不能完整的说话只是一直哭而他只能不断安慰我。而我在那天晚上哭了一夜但我也告诉我自己这时我最后一次哭了。因为我能体验到哭是不能解决问题要面对它才能真正的解脱。

THANKS~~~

WOW around 2 weeks i didnt port blog alr coz bz for interview but still unemployed haiz swt however i still will aplly till get job wakaka. Last saturday ( 21 Feb) was my 22 yrs old birthday so me and all my college go poppy n celebrate. I also invited my best fren chooiyee and puishan go as well on tat nite. wakaka puishan look like very enjoy n happy tat nite thus i think we hav 1 more clubbing kaki alr.
B4 go for clubbing my best fren was treat me dinner at sunway zanmai. THis is the 1st time i ate sushi in zanmai. Many ppl say tat it is nicer than sushi king but i hav no comment coz i seldom eat sushi. However 10s to Kah hong,yenmie,chooiyee and puishan for the zanmai dinner i luv it very much
After dinner sure clubbing lar since i say wan clubbing n celebrate my birthday i'm alr know tat sure i will get drunk on tat nite kekeke. Especially OJ SIM was there.....i though only OJ SIM "dui" me but i cant believe tat even the YEWKOON also keep ask me drink till dun let me go dance floor.....wat i can say is i really drink a lot on my birthday until i dunno my fren order flamming for me.
If u think tat flamming is the end then u r wrong coz they order another alcohol to me (i'm drunk till dunno wat the name at tat time wakaka) when i'm drunk i js seat down and keep crying. I also dunno wat i cry for but i js cant control myself and the water keep come out from my eyes.
However i really happy on tat nite and say THANKS to everyone at celebrate with me on tat nite i'm appreciated so much.
I wan THANKS to alexiss,puishan, chooiyee, peivoon, peikuan,meiyee, cindy,kendrick, munyee,brian(10s for cover for me on tat nite), kialoon,kianloong,xien(10s for take care of me when i'm drunk),MK,OJ,yewkoon, karwai, dude and others fren.
PS: THANKS for all the presents as well, i love it so much

幸福

以前我不知道幸福这两个字到底是什么,甚至很烦恼为什么幸福总是离我很遥远……但是昨天我看了游龙喜凤后,我有了一点领悟.因为在戏里是这样说的……

“很久以前有人说幸福就象一个玻璃球，可是有一天它掉在地上把幸福撒到一地,都是让人怎么捡都捡不完，但是只要你肯努力多多少少捡到一点.”

我很赞同这句话,因为它提醒着每个人都应该拥有属于自己的幸福.所以我衷心希望我身边的每个人都能找到属于自己的幸福.不要因为一点点的挫折就不敢往前去找自己的幸福.

承诺

当许下承诺那瞬间， 决对是真诚的。

但是， 很多时候当被承诺冲混了头的当儿，

我们往往都会忘记了其实承诺是有生命的，

它终会在时间的侵蚀下渐渐的风化死亡。

当承诺不能被兑现时， 接踵而来就是背叛和怨恨。

把两个曾经山盟海誓， 非君不嫁， 非卿不娶的人

从相爱到分道扬镳， 甚至到死都不相往来。

这一切一切都归咎于我们都太过相信承诺了。

然而你可能会问，

如果连被称之为永恒的爱情都不足以信赖的话，

那还有什么值得我们去信赖呢？

然而我选着相信。

我相信未来是可以改变的。

纵使有千句诺言是假的，

这个世界欺骗了你一千次，

我们仍有理由去期待， 第一千零一句诺言，

一定是真的！ 给自己一份希望，

让自己感觉到快乐, 世上的人千千万,

总有一个是我们所等待的。

朋友们， 放宽心胸，忘记过去，

美好的明天就在不远处向我们招手。

黑夜过去就是光明的到来。

只要心还在跳动就有希望！！！

Updates

WOW today was a wonderful day coz i saw my idol in this morning. WAKAKA when i saw him tat time i though i'm wrong but when i c properly he was really in front of me......... HAHA say so long also havent talk about who is my idol wor.... KEKE he is badminton men's double player---TAN BOON HEONG wah i only can use 1 word to describe him...."yeng" really really handsome lar erm maybe can take him as example for my future BF wakakakaka (js kidding) lol two more weeks later is CNY alr very excited jor but actually i have nothing to do during CNY de dun care js gambling and win many many monay back (coz really broke recently kaka) sumore i wan watch movie with frenz........however "GONG XI FA CAI" to everyone ya..........

爱情

在这个世界上有多少人真正的认识爱情呢??

对我而言,我憧憬爱情但也害怕认识它

因为我曾经以为它就在我身边

但当我想要捉紧的时候爱情已走远.....

爱情真的让人捉摸不透

它可以让你在快乐的云端

也可以让你在伤心的谷底

如果经验六七年的爱情都可以结束

哪一辈子的爱情要在哪里找呢?

我不知道我一直坚持的执着到底对不对

但我只希望属于我点点滴滴的伤心我要忘记

属于我闪闪发亮的爱情我还有努力

因为现在的我正迈入新的人生新的自我